Saturday, October 29, 2005
12:03 AM
sometimes people do things and you just dont understand why..as much as you wana know the truth you'll just never find out..and you'll just be made to live in doubt and misery..sadness would have probably filled your everyday with that,along heartache you bring..from coloured world you get the old black and white again..your life may have stopped there for that moment too and you thought to yourself..i'll wait..i know he/she will be back..one day led to two and two led to weeks..weeks led to months..thats when you told yourself..he/she is never coming back..you wonder why..you asked for answer but you'll end up being ignored.
the truth was what i wanted but i never got it,till now.
okay that was just a sudden thought when i was listening to this goodcharlotte song..so yeah..:)
Thursday, October 27, 2005
7:07 PM
school was shit i swear..3 days not in school and when im back nothing major happens..its so damn boring i swear!it was homeroom and boring..i was saying that i dont wana go school tml but i have to cause we gotto get our report book..how shit is that..anyway its half day i think..it felt so weird going back to school after staying home all weekend..haha okay im talking rubbish..haha okay this is boring..the school holidays are coming..first thing on my must do list,CUT MY HAIR!haha its so long and irritating now..haha
okay im not gona blog till i have something to update about cause i feel stupid:p
paint my love.
From my youngest years till this moment here
I've never seen such a lovely queen
From the skies above to deepest love
I've never felt crazy like this before
* CHORUS : Paint my love you should paint my love
It's the picture of thousand sunsets
It's the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love
Been around the world then I met you girl
It's like coming home to a place I've known
* REPEAT CHORUS
Since you came into my life
The days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed
* REPEAT CHORUS (X2)
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
12:50 PM
me:mommy are you coming back for lunch?
mom:no
me:then can i order macs?
mom:no your still on mc and its bad for your throat yada yada
me:then what do i eat?
mom:go make bread
isnt my mom nice?im like dying here and she doesnt even care!!haha okay im being such an ass..im just bored to death here!!marilyn chat with me and she asked who is my life rented to..haha i was shock haha stupid..ahhh!!im bored bored bored..everyone's in school while im here all alone at home with nothing to eat or do:(((marilyn said she'll be back in an hour and a half and we'll talk:)
argh im so bored..okay theres nothing to update on so cheers:D
Monday, October 24, 2005
12:55 PM
the past few days have just been horrible..the med taste is still in my mouth and i swear it sucks..mom have been waking up in the middle of the night to feed me my med and taking my temp again and again..and my temp have been going up and down..how annoying..haha oh well mom told me not to go to school..will be heading to the Docs again later..the fever is more or less gone..right now its just the cough..guess its another day home..you folks take care:)
lay your hands.
Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance
When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense
(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.
Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight
When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense
(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me..
'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...
(Oh baby, when I'm calling out)
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
(Oh, if you see me falling down)
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
(And when I'm in my darkest hour)
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.
Come and lay your hands on me.
Saturday, October 22, 2005
8:32 PM
im sick again:(((((
i feel so horrible..went to send char off yesterday with ling,as,chess,mel and zul..resa sent me to the airport after the colours award thing and i waited for over an hour for them to turn up cause the dear princess char took ages to turn up..haha anyway we had dinner and after which,we went to take like shit loads of pictures..haha and i started to have headache so i left at around 945?yeah took an hour plus to get home all the way from the airport..and woke up with a worst headache and high fever again..this time,mom insist i went to the Docs so i did..he said my fever is quite high..38.70?yeah got shit loads of med to take now..one for cough and one anti thingie and one for fever and sore throat and all the shit illness thats in me now..this suck..i usually dont fall sick so when i do..its always for quite some time and its serious..hurr..my whole body is aching and ive been sleeping thru my day..what a way to spend the weekend aye..crappp la..
anyway to all who texted or tried calling me like a whole lot of times..sorry for not answering or replying..i was in bed the whole day and i didnt have the strength to do anything at all..sorry..argh..i cant even walk straight..haha!hmm oh well..i guess this is all..cheers folks!
fly away.
[Nelly Talking]
Free City
This is a shout out to every young brother ya know
Thats doin his thing right now
Keep ya head up...
He’s walkin the yard wishin he had wings
Ya know so he could fly up out that joint
Man
[Intro]
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn’t come back no more
I, I’d turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey, that it won’t be easy
I done fought in a battle, and I done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
[Verse 1]
Man, it’s the longest yard I ever had to get in my life
And see my life ain’t right, if my wife don’t write
My niggas cant eat if the fish don’t bite
My raise the gross sales, like Mike and Ike
Now big brother almighty
I keep a gamma ray, i’ma G-5 G
Take a G-5 jeep, G-5 deep
Too some of their bare feet
And that jeep don’t speak
Listen mayne they lock it down round herre
See body bag and gag and your found round herre
This as serious as it sound round herre
The guards guard the ground, 4 pounds round herre
And they ain’t playin, they’re just lettin you know
That anything they want to happen, nigga happen real slow
Get the word from upstairs, put you in that hole
I cant take it, I’m just ready to go
[Chorus]
If I could, fly away
Ooo and I wouldn’t come back no more
I, I’d turn around,
Just to see you for the last time,
See, now I know
Hey, that it won’t be easy
I done fought in a battle, and I done made it this far
I gotta few more feet, but its still the longest yard
Yeah yeah, its still the longest yard
Uh uh, its still the longest yard
Um um, its still the longest yard
I done fought in a battle and I done made it this far
[Verse 2]
I’m in my cell 20 hours a day
And doin push-ups ever hour a day
Cause im tryin to keep the cobwebs away
Thats why im markin off the calendar days
Tryin to get it out of the way
And im just tryin to keep a piece of mine
And im gon shame a motherfucker with a piece of mine
Cause he tryin to take a piece of mine
So im gon slice his ass a piece at a time
But now that they close the door
Lock me in and cell 30 deep but its built for 10
Tell me what kind of world they got you in
With the barbed wire fences, box u in
From now, til they turn off the lights
I’ma read anything in sight
Its kinda hard tryin to read at night
But I’ma change my life
And hope another brother take this flight
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
(Oohh no) I gotta make it out this place some how
(Oohh no) Man I really believe that I done turned it around
(Oohh no) You see, all I need is that second chance to show,
since I crossed the ration, my obligation of rehabilitation
(Oohh no) They can punch me high, and they can kick me low
(Oohh no) But I mean its gonna take more than that for them to break my soul
(Oohh no) Man its hard for people to understand what its like to be,
gated, incarcerated , I just cant take it, but I’ma make it man to see better days
[Chorus]
[Hook]
If I could fly away,
If I could I turn around,
If I could fly away
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
10:27 PM
my headache led to fever last night..nearly died..felt hot yet really cold..haha thank God im much better now..but my body is still aching like shit and i still feel weak..haha stupid shit..didnt go out the whole day today..mom was nice..she came home for lunch to check on me..she kept asking if i wana see the Doc..but i didnt see a need to..haha yes yes anyway im starting to love animal planet..the protectors..ASPCA..i wana go work there!!and i want a baby orang outan!!okay im not too sure about the spelling..haha yeah anyway i watched wild life and they were so damn cute!!!i want one!!haha yes yes anyway gona go out tml!!cant wait..yes yes..okok since i didnt go out today so i dont have much to blog about..till than..cheers:)
i like this song lay your hands by simon webbes but i cant find the damn lyrics..fuck shit..haha
Monday, October 17, 2005
2:22 PM
exams are finally over:)
had a bad headache this morning..nearly died during on the way to school..anyway..the damn heater shitted on us this morning..i showered with cold water and that caused my brain to freeze..and i still have that feeling now..stupid shit..yes yes anyway F&N paper is for sleeping i swear..we started at 8 and i finished the 7 page paper at 820 and i went to "bed"..haha soon the whole class was sleeping and this happens every year..how stupid..the paper is not really tough but well my marks still depends on the marker..she better not be a fucker
anyway paper finally ended at 935 and we had a fucking two hr break before this stupid review and reflection shit that the school came up with..its stupid i swear!they ask the same damn qns every single damn year!!it pisses me off..so for this one qns that asked:what can the school improve on?my ans to that was:change the R&R qns:)haha it was funny la..anyway i headed to harbour with zenn and headed for home only to realise that i forgot my keys!!and i had a feeling robin was home..but i still went to granny's place to get keys..thanks god she just lives a few blks down..but anyway robin was feeling sick so he didnt go for class..haha what an ass..
not going for tmls pre camp for obs..probably go down to mary's house..coolness shit with gwen and zenn too:)i cant wait!!till then,cheers you folks:)
deep and meaningless.
I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
[Chorus:]
If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn thats sad)
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me
[Chorus (repeat)]
Sunday, October 16, 2005
5:18 PM
woke up before 9 this morning and started quarrling with mom..she was being a bitch cause she and dad fought over some fuck market fish thing..argh i got so fucking fed up i swear..argh!anyway she stomped into my room again at 1230 and started yaking..i got so damn piss i got up and nearly broke her kitchen door..argh!what a way to start my damn sunday morning..she's such a pussy!okay thats what dear clara would say..haha fishball!okay inside joke..haha!
anyway sent coffee to puppy's petrol for a basic grooming..she smells great now..it has been pouring..ran in the rain with dad so many times to pick coffee and get lunch..and my lunch sucked la..mom made pao..not too bad la..okay my arms are aching from carrying coffee so this is all..f&n paper tml..wish me luck!its set by my favorite teacher..hahahha!
cheers folks!:)
wise men.
She said to me, "Go steady on me.
Won't you tell me what the Wise Men said?
When they came down from Heaven,
Smoked nine 'til seven,
All the shit that they could find,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun."
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
Really sorry now,
They weren't to know.
They got caught up in your talent show,
With you pernickety little bastards in your fancy dress,
Who just judge each other and try to impress,
But they couldn't escape from you,
Couldn't be free of you,
And now they know there's no way out,
And they're really sorry now for what they've done,
They were three Wise Men just trying to have some fun.
Look who's alone now,
It's not me. It's not me.
Those three Wise Men,
They've got a semi by the sea.
Got to ask yourself the question,
Where are you now?
12:18 AM
boredddd.
okay i am sooooo bored..went out for dinner with mom,dad and robin..haha yes yes and robin was being retarded..haha and i have the urge to drink tonight..but i wont..okay now suddenly i feel sleepy..haha csi tml morning!i cant wait!!haha!:)gona have to wake up early though....i usually wake up at like 1plus 2 but cause of csi..i wake up at 1230!!haha nvm my orea and milk is waiting for me:D
okay folks nothing much to say..goodnight:)
dear jamie...sincerely me.
[Verse]
Dear Jamie I've got a letter I would like to send
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the end.
Should I trust this dial act?
To convey the right effect?
Dear Jamie I've got some things I'd like to set in pen
I would have used a pencil but that's just not permanent.
Should I trust my printer's ink?
To express the things I think?
[Chorus]
Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say
[Verse]
Dear Jamie this envelope have the resent my heart
I'll seal it, send it off and wish it luck with its depart.
This stamp will be every action and carry my affection
Across the air and land easy
Should I trust the poster's due?
To deliver my heart to you?
[Chorus]
Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say
Everything I've tried my best to think of something to contest
With inside jokes and all the folks could have much more to say
Give it up I can
Flower and a hand
I hope this helps you see
Signed Sincerely me.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
4:47 PM
was suppose to go out today but ended up staying home watchin dvd with robin cause he wanted to watch eye 10 and he wanted me to be there cause he was scared..hahaha!i must say he suck when it comes to scary stuff..he didnt wana let go of my dad the last time we watched thirteen ghost..mom and i just couldnt stop laughing our heads off and mom still keeps teasing dad about it..haha!i guess its like having a"son"for dad..haha oh well:)
not much on today..probably hit ikea later for meatballs!!:D-drools i love the meatballs there with extra sauce..haha melissa used to steal them from me all the time..haha oh well..okay thats about it i guess..cheers!:)
best day of my life.
Woke up around a half past ten
Can’t believe that I’m late again
Put down about a quart of caffine
To start my post and then
I grabbed my jeans off the floor and I hit the door,
Just the same old same
It goes to show
You never know
When everything’s about to change
Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ....
Had the best day of my life
Can’t say exactly what it was
She’s not the usual type
She wore a cowboy hat
With her red Prada boots
And a Gwen Stefani smile
Then she pulled out a pen and surprised me when
She wrote her number on my hand
Then she was gone,
But from now on
I’m gonna be a different man
Just another day
Started off like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life
I guess it goes to show
You never really know
When everything’s about to change
Just another day
Started out like any other
Just another girl who took my breath away
Then she turned around
She took me down
Just another day that I ...
Had the best day of my life [x2]
Friday, October 14, 2005
11:11 PM
okay i know it have been ages since my last update..there were many reasons
1)exams
2)exams
3)exams
4)exams
5)i was just pure lazy:)
haha okay went alil off back there:)im so happy to get my hands on the computer this weekend..ended my second last papers today..had maths 1 and bio..it was okay la..i was falling asleep big time during bio so i rushed thru it and went to sleep really quick:X i hope i didnt make any stupid mistakes cause for chem i already did..so its like @#$%#%$!haha yes yes anyway im keeping my fingers crossed for this final exams and i can only pray that all would go well:)okay this time i didnt jog or train myself during the exams and im kinda piss with myself cause i think ive lost touch..haha ive not ran for God knows how long!:( and i feel really fat now..and my all time dear mother isnt helping much..haha mum have been an idiot lately and robin my new friend have been really funny and have fitted in quite well i must say:)
last paper on monday..home econs!hope its not a killer..haha yes yes im not sure of what to update about..so thats all for now folks:)
always come back to your love.
yeah check it
what what wha
uh y'all like a hey
yeah uh
come on uh
no doubt break it
i've been up and down uh
been going round and round uh
i've been all over town what what
but i'll never ever find somebody for sure
yes yes y'all left to right
yes yes y'all we can rock it all night
show me where i belong tonight all night
give me a reason to stay
no matter if i go left or right left to right
i always come back to your love
back to your love
i've been high and low uh
i don't know where to go go baby
because i love you so you're like a hey
and i'll never ever find
someone like you for sure
yes yes y'all left to right
yes yes y'all we can rock it all night
show me where i belong tonight all night
give me a reason to stay like a hey
no matter if i go left or right left to right
i always come back to your love
back to your love
love
no matter if i go left or right left to right
i always come back to your love
yeah
love
back to your love
break it
go way left to right
go way left to right
go way i always find your love
show me where i belong tonight
give me a reason to stay
no matter if i go left or right
i always come back to your love
show me where i belong tonight tonight
give me a reason to stay
no matter if i go left or right left to right
i always come back to your love uh
back to your love
love stargate
love 2g
i always come back to your love
Sunday, October 02, 2005
thank SAM!
2:07 AM
Okay it have been ages since I last updated that’s cause blogger have been giving me some fucked up problems..haha oh well sam was bored so I asked her to help me..yes yes and no that don’t make you a kind soul sam..cause all you had to do was post it up..i typed all these myself..haha!okay but I shall be nice and still say a big fat THANK YOU!:) sam think she rocks! (:
Okay today woke up at 1030 thanks to melon but if it wasn’t for her..i doubt I would have made it to meet cass and her at tiong..haha so yes thanks for the morning text melon!haha anyway I was late as they all predicted BUT!cass was even later..haha anyway we had lunch than headed to kallang for the briefing for our OBS in nov:) haha I think its gona be fun but oh well..we’ll see..haha anyway we had to cross this road and the cars were all speeding fucking fast..haha but melon and I still manage to roll over..hahaha!okay im talking rubbish as you can tell..haha bored..the whole thing ended at around 330..headed to town with cass,melon and nikki..we went to bugis to walk and eat and wanted to go to the national library but it was closed for some stupid stuff thingie..stupiddd!haha okay yes so we walked around and decided to go upstairs to sit down..we talked about a lot of things..from school work to obs and stuff we needed..haha the 3 of them might stay over on the day before obs..haha the shirt they gave us is nice..i like it la..haha yes yes
Oh well after that later at night I met up with my parents for dinner with all my dad side of the aunt and uncles..we went to pick my granny up from the airport at around 9plus..haha my lil cousin is fucking adorable la..haha I just hate him though..maybe cause its my pop side we’re talking about..but its not all of them that I have an issue with..haha anyway my older cousin who have been claiming she likes girls and says she hate guys and all asked if I have any girlfriend now infront of my parents mind you..haha I was like’huh?!?no!’haha I got a shock la..haha that bloody ass..till now,I still wonder if she’s crook..haha anyway that about it..i loved the long ride to the airport and back home:)
Hopefully we’ll hit times book store tml..i really wana get that book ive been dying for!!cheers folks!
doorbell.
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
yeah, I been thinkin' about my doorbell
Oh, well
Well with me and chipin' me and kisses?
Not the man in my life I know
And I been going to mystery misses
I respect the art of the show
Take back whan you said little girl
And while you're at it take yourself back too
Woman whatcha gonna do now, whatcha gonna do about it
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it oh
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I been thinkin' about my doorbell
Oh, yeah
You don't seem to come around
Point your finger and make a sound
You don't seem to come around
Not since I said you knocked it down?
Oh, well
Make a sound and I'll make you feel right
Right at home, yeah
Yeah, right at home, yeah
Nobody got ......?
But how come it's so easy to you
You know it's like me at times I can be careless
But your words seem so obtuse
But then again I know you feel guilty
And you tell me you want me again
But I don't need any of your pity
I got plenty of my own friends
They're all above me
And I've been thinkin' about my doorbell
When they gonna ring it, when they gonna ring it
Yeah, I've been thinkin' about the doorbell
When they gonna ring it, when they gonna ring it oh
I've been thinkin' about the doorbell
When they gonna ring it, when they gonna ring it
Yeah, I been thinkin' about the doorbell
Oh, well
They don't seem to come around
Push the finger and make a sound
They don't seem to come around
Maybe they they'll knock 'em down
Oh, well
Make a sound and I'll make you feel right
Right at home
Right at home
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I been thinkin' about my doorbell
And when you're gonna ring it, when you're gonna ring it
I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
When ya gonna ring it, when ya gonna ring it
Yeah, I'm thinkin' about my doorbell
Oh, oh well
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